two and two is four. despite 2 of the four languages being poor, that still amounts to a decent number of words. what do you do with so many words if you don't write? and worse, what do you do if you do write, but badly?

i have perhaps 2 dozen tubes of oil paint, 30 or more color pencils, 2 boxes of pastels, a handful of charcoal, various other means of making marks on paper or canvas. and a mind state of absolute blankness.

is there a hole or a pit some place where the coherent streams of thoughts in your mind all tumble into and disappear?

am i practicing meditation? everything is nothing. nothing is everything.